My facepaint wears thin in the midst of battle, these are times of despair Emotional warfare, it's hell but I'm prepared Life has its share of obstacles but no one told me they were all unfair As I push the envelope over the edge, there's no time for thought It floats in mid-air for a split second before it's caught I'm known for jumping the gun, but I'm afraid this time I'll get shot Repeat offender, defender of the universe Cursed since birth but I'm laid back and care-free for what it's worth I'd be surprised if I survived another ten years on this earth Bankrupt of life yet prodigal of ease Only when I'm fast asleep I see what no one else sees It's time to go... (freeze)... It's time to grow Everything stops when the wind blows soft Everything goes wrong when the wind blows strong Everything grows when the wind blows I can only imagine what it would be like to live a perfect life Unfortunately its impossible for me to find the perfect wife Cause my scarred and imperfect back would be just right for the perfect knife Double-crossed in front of my hometown crowd Where people's personal lives are spectator sports commentated out loud There goes my career, I hope I made my parents proud All I can do now is sit back and watch the sunset A storybook ending to a life which I regret Irony used to be my enemy but now it's my greatest asset Everything stops when the wind blows soft Everything goes wrong when the wind blows strong Everything grows when the wind blows I cant just give up with such a stupid look on my face Crawling back on my hands and knees is my only means of escape Just erase my existance and shove me into the nearest fireplace Maybe I'm being to hard on myself Maybe I should take my ego off the shelf and make it bigger "I'm better than you" It's not working, it's only affecting my health I'm gonna die anyway, it's been this way for months I'm sick and tired of sitting in the corner being treated like a dunce I just wanted to feel like I was important for once Everything stops when the wind blows soft Everything goes wrong when the wind blows strong Everything grows when the wind blows I can't go outside and no one's allowed inside my head That day's embedded into my memory, the rest is better left unsaid Spread the word of my arrival if there's any word left to spread Resurrection, undeserving but accepted Unsuspected after being repremanded then rejected Amazing how easy it is to get misdirected Stargazing, I notice that the moon's full I then stare at the sky as if wanting to destroy something beautiful But I'm forbidden...in situations like this, I have no pull It's consequential, my decisions are set in stone Every single person has done something that they condone What's done is done, leave it alone I put my past behind me and I put my future behind that So in order to get where I'm goin I have to go back and reflect on the past So in order to get where I'm goin I have to go back and reflect on the past So in order to get where I'm goin I have to go back and reflect on the past In order to get where I'm goin I have to go back and reflect on the past Such a complicated procedure....too bad I'm goin nowhere fast